feel filled 9/23

i feel filled with negative energy
i've been irritable and snappy
trying to figure out what it takes to make me happy
but I can't seem to center myself
Quev helps, and I love him.
why do i keep rebuilding walls he's already knocked down
pushing him away and then curling up under him
to the point that I'm almost too vulnerable
two extremes and I can't seem to center myself
I need to go into myself and roam
and roam and roam and roam
and all the while finding me altogether