12/1/09

all day i've been feeling like telling myself i told you so .

sincee right now i'm feeling kinda comfortable with sharing how i feel
(for some strange reason] , i'll kinda tell you why ;

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yu know when you learn a lesson & yu tell yourself your not gonna go back there ,

like when your little & yu touch something hot & afterwards yu know not to touch it again ?
but your tempted to touch it anyway ? & yu do it ? & get burned ?

& then yu feel stupid because yu knew yu shouldn't have done it .
like yu knew better ?

well i know that i knew better , but i did it anyway .
i thought if i went with the flow & knock down those walls that it might be different .

but it isn't -- im back to pissing myself off so there , i lose again .
& its my fault , but oh well .


you want a poem ?

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'restless as i toss and turn finding reasons not to let myself fall: because if i give him my love, my heart, my all, he'll give it back no strings attached. because if i love him unconditionally he'll love HER andi'll wish it were me. because if i let him hold my hand, his other will hold the lies to feed me. but the reason they will neverunderstand: if i fall in love with him, he'll fall in love with me, and we'll live hapilly, how could that be ?'
n love with me, and we'll live hapilly, how could that be ?'